Thursday, May 28, 2009


We went to our appointment today thinking they would use a dummy pump to teach us how to use his MiniMed. When we got there - they had his PUMP there ready to hook up.

We are now on our saline trial till Monday morning when we'll switch to insulin.

I will admit I had a bit of a breakdown and I cried. All those mixed feelings coming out again. :P

Wednesday, May 27, 2009


We go in to get training for Logan's MiniMed tomorrow afternoon. On Monday, we have a doctor's appointment at which he'll receive his new pump. He'll have a saline trial and at the end of the week is the last day of school. At that time, I'll switch him to insulin in his pump.

I have such mixed emotions. I've been dying to get a pump since he was first diagnosed nearly 6 months ago and yet, I still grieve for the change in his life. Sometimes, I ask "why us?" and other times, I just cry.

Will the grieving end? I still feel like such a novice at the Type 1 thing...will I ever be comfortable making decisions that affect Logan's body so much? I mentioned to my husband the other day that I honestly cannot believe that we've kept him alive and mostly healthy for this long...isn't that a horrible thought less than 6 months in?

I sometimes feel the pressure of this never-ending disease and weighing very heavily on my heart and mind. I have to stop my thoughts because it's just this eternal ring of 'what ifs' and 'why nots.'

At the end of every day, I thank God that my children made it through another day with no major catastrophies. I am so exhausted by the time we go to bed...I need a vacation from the diabetes and the worry.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Mother's Day

We spent Mother's Day at the in laws with the cousins. My kids spent some time with their cousin Sam playing in a creek by the house.
It was a great day. The kids played and entertained themselves. My husband and his brothers reminisced...lots of funny stories.
I got wii fit that Lexi's dying for me to get out so she can play. I think I'll finally do that today.

Friday, May 1, 2009

A1c Report Card

Anyone else feel like their child's A1c is their report card?

Two months into his diabnosis, Logan's A1c was 8.1. The doctor said it wasn't bad. The goal for his age group is anything below 8.

I bought a $9 A1c test at WalMart about ten weeks after the first A1c test and got the results today (they had my email address wrong and I should have called to check sooner)...ready to see my grade? 6.8! In ten weeks, his A1c dropped 1.4 points - I know some adults that are jealous of his A1c!!